How things are going

So, yeah, as you probably noticed, there was no "Tumblr Roundup" this Sunday. I'm sorry. I meant to give a notice, but I didn't. Why did I not give a notice or do a Tumblr Roundup? Because my dysphoria is attacking me extremely hard right now. I just want to die. It won't go away. It keeps coming back, stronger than before, sucking away my will to live. Lord, may I die or start transitioning, and I mean, transition SOON. I can't keep doing this. I can't keep wanting to die. I can't keep grabbing a knife from the kitchen, taking it to my room and chickening out at the last second. I can't keep doing this. I can't keep wanting to harm myself, only to stop myself at the last second. Lord, just let me be a woman.

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  1. AnonymousOctober 29, 2019 at 12:17 PM

    Hi Anna :)
    Im a christian too and I believe this is a really important issue

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    1. AnnaOctober 29, 2019 at 12:39 PM

      Hello Good Times,
      First off, thanks for commenting! Second, can you clarify what you consider to be "a really important issue?" There's like several things just off this post alone that you could mean.

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  2. AnonymousOctober 29, 2019 at 12:42 PM

    I think it is important that as a transgender person you believe in God and Jesus and have faith

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    1. AnnaOctober 29, 2019 at 1:04 PM

      Ah, I see. Well, in that we would agree. I made this blog to help show people that there's nothing to reconcile in being trans and Christian, and also for my own personal therapy to cope with dysphoria, unsupportive family and abuse, all from a Christian perspective.

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    2. AnonymousOctober 29, 2019 at 3:11 PM

      I think you making a blog about it will help people reading it know that they are not alone :)

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  3. AnonymousOctober 29, 2019 at 12:46 PM

    Also I would love for you to comment on my latest blog :)

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