Ugh

Sorry that I've barely written, my depression and dysphoria are killing me. Since I still live with my parents (hopefully that situation will be changing soon), I can't transition yet. So, what do I do to help make myself feel better? Cross-dressing, mostly (damn I can't wait until the day I can stop calling it cross-dressing), but I'll also listen to music or play video games. What do you you guys do to help distract yourself from dysphoria? I would love to hear what helps you guys. In another posts I'll go into specifics about my musuc and video game tastes. That's all for now.

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